It’s been a while since I’ve done a blog post and just wanted to let you all know what I’m to at the moment.
For those of you that know, I’ve been back at work for 3 weeks now, and I am really really struggling with it. Due to my poor mental health and this crippling fatigue I’ve been dealing with, I’ve dropped my hours right down to 25 a week. Annoyingly this is still too much for any kind of government financial help, so I’m just trying to trudge on and cope with a 3rd less money a month. My fiance and family have been amazing though, and both are helping me out while I try and sort out some kind of routine and get my finances in order again.
Being back at work, and sleeping when I’m not, means my creativity has taken a huge nose dive. I haven’t been able to find time to burn anything, and my studies are taking a hit as well.
I actually have another doctors appointment on Monday because I’m just not happy with what I’ve been told. Every single symptom I have get’s blamed on depression, despite my mood being fine. I should be able to function for more than 6 hours a day without a complete crash afterwards. So I’ve been doing loads of research to try and back myself up when I go in, as I’m tired of being fobbed off.
Chris is working odd shifts at the moment so currently I have weekends to myself. Obviously I should be studying and cleaning and doing all the housey stuff that needs doing, but I’m just too tired. I did a bit this morning, and I’m paying for it now. Back hurts, hips hurt, hands hurt. I don’t have a headache yet, so that’s good. But I feel like life just shouldn’t be this hard.
I promise I’ll get back into crafting and burning again soon. I need to stock the shop up with Christmassy stuff anyway. I just need another 12 hours in a day and another 4 days added to my weekend!