New Year, Same Me

So there’s the big cliche of making a new start in the new year.. Mines a little late.

January so far has been a right shitter. A whole bunch of bad stuff happened, and I’ve generally been a miserable cow. Now its almost out of the way I’ve decided to start trying to better myself, mentally and physically.

I’ve been working a lot more on my degree the past few weeks. Even though I’m shockingly tired all the time thanks to the M.E, I am finding that having a genuine, vested interest in the subject matter has made me actually want to do more. Its working well at the moment as I’m working part time. I finish at 2, come home, rest/nap for a couple of hours then pick it up in the evening. It’ll be interesting to see if I can cope once I have to go back to full time.

Wedding planning is coming along nicely! So we have the venue.. Which is actually at a bike rally hosted by my families bike club (fiance and dad are both members), we have the celebrant booked, and the registry office is booked. We want a big fancy bell tent for the weekend since we’ll be there from the Thursday to the Sunday/Monday, and I don’t want to attempt getting ready in a two man tent! There’ll be live bands, food, drinks and bikes. Super exciting. I was never interested in getting married so I’ve never had any plans for it. This is entirely for Chris. I’d be happy down the registry office with a couple of witnesses, but you can’t win them all.

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Another MASSIVE cliche I shall be partaking of, is losing weight! I’m joining slimming world with my Mum next week. I haven’t weighed myself since I moved out of my flat and back into my parents with Chris, and everyone tells me I haven’t put any on, but I feel massive and unhealthy. I imagine the M.E plays a big part of it, and like, the fact that I hate every single part of me, but I don’t want to be huge at my wedding. Not when there’ll be photographic evidence. Usually I can avoid ever seeing photo’s of myself, but I suppose I’ll have to see these ones eventually.

Birb Update! He’s still a twat. He’s literally obsessed with stealing any people food he can get his beak into, but I hear that’s not an uncommon trait. His feathers and beak are a lot better now. Much healthier. We’ve started sticking him in the shower with us whenever we shower, since his idea of a wash is sticking his face in his water bowl and flapping around. Its brought his green out beautifully! I doubt he’s ever had a proper shower before so it’s taking a little time to get him used to it, but it’s pretty funny. He likes to sing and wolf whistle, which is a nice little confidence boost when you’re nakey ūüėČ

So those are my plans for Feb onwards. I just want to be healthier and generally happier. I mean, I;m not unhappy, just unhappy with myself.

Things will get better!


The C-word

With Christmas around the corner, I thought I’d talk about what that means to me. I come from a completely non-religious family, so it’s certainly not about that for me. I think the most ‘religousy’ thing I’ve ever done for Christmas was when I was still in Primary School and sang in the school choir. There’s a massive church in my home town and we did a thing there. It was pretty cool. But only in the sense that it mean I got to stay up late and the lights were all awesome. I wasn’t filled with any holy light or anything, it was just fun.

Nowadays it’s an excuse for the family to all be in one place at a time, usually my parents, open presents, eat loadsa food and just generally hang out. Me and Chris are already living at my parents while we save for our boat, but both my younger sisters are away now. Hayleigh, the middle sister lives and works in Bournemouth, and Cleona, the baby has recently started Uni at Oxford Brookes. My Nan and Grandad will most likely be over as well which is nice.

Normally, and if I have money, I am AWESOME at buying gifts. And I mean literally amazing. I always find cool stuff. This year however with money being an issue Chris and I have opted to make our gifts, which means¬†I’ll be making them, and he will provide moral support. Weirdly I’ve decided to try something new for gifts, instead of what I already do. I want to enjoy making them and not have it feel like work. Hopefully I will have enough time and energy to get them all done, because there is a lot this year.

I’m also doing something new this Christmas, and going to Chris’ Mum’s for dinner! A couple of Christmas’s ago I spent it away from my Family, and it suuuuucked, so I’m a little apprehensive about it, but Chris’ family are all cool and I like seeing them, so I reckon it should be good. Will just be weird not having Christmas dinner with my fam, but we’re spending the morning with them still, which is good.

I know plans can change, but this is what we have planned so far. It’s Sky’s first Christmas with us as well, and since he’s pretty smart and sulks if he doesn’t get enough attention, we’ll have to come up with a way to keep him entertained as well. Should be interesting.

So whats your plans for Christmas? Staying at home? Visiting family? Or something completely different? I’m always interested to hear what other peoples traditions are so shoot me a comment and let me know!


I’m the Whittlin’ (wo)Man!!

If you haven’t noticed by now, I’m sort of in to wood work and wood crafting. Whilst my current living situation (fiance and I are at my parents :/ ) limits what I can learn, I try and learn as much as I can with the tools and space I have. If you’re here you¬†should¬†already know I do a lot of wood burning and pyrography. I’ve done this for years but have only recently started selling bits and pieces online. I’m very unsure of myself and have zero confidence in my abilities, so the fact that people are actually paying money for my work is awesome! Admittedly I don’t do an awful lot of it anymore. And my shop might get one new item every month or so, but I do it around work, studying for a degree in Illustration and having a (potentially) chronic illness. More on that in a later post.

Something I’ve always wanted to try, but have never gotten around to, is wood carving. My Uncle Ian¬†is a well established and successful wood sculptor, and some of his work is amazing. Check it out here.¬†We don’t talk very often unfortunately. He’s a busy man and has some very young kids so we see him maybe once a year. I’ve tried reaching out to him a few times about going to wood carving festivals with him, or sourcing good wood for wood burning, but I never get anything back from him. I know he’s not really a techy person, so I don’t take it personally. He’s just probably not seen my messages. But irregardless of all that, I figured I would just give it a go!


So despite today actually being my fiances birthday, we went to our local Axeminster and got me a couple of knives. Chris grew up in the country so whittled as a kid and knows his way around axes and knives. He’s going to show me how to sharpen them properly, and what wood is good to use. He’ll also show me the basics and how to do it safely so I don’t immediately cut my fingers off. Chris is very skilled in, well skills, but confesses he lacks the creativity to actually¬†make anything with them. He’s super supportive of me though, and thinks that me eventually leaving my job and crafting/studying full time is a great idea. I doubt I would ever actually do that though. Not having a guaranteed income terrifies me haha.

I’m looking forward to trying something new. And am hoping it means eventually I can expand the contents of my Etsy Shop¬†to some hand carved pieces. I already have a few ideas for some simple necklaces and keyrings, but I’m trying not to get a head of myself just yet.

Progress may be slow, but I am still here. Still crafting. Still working. Still living.


New Addition!

My¬† mental health isn’t great at the moment, and I’ve been signed off for a few weeks. Now I had planned to use the time crafting and trying not to worry about work, but plans changed very quickly.

Sunday afternoon, Sky came home with us. He is a 10 year old Orange-winged Amazon Parrot. An absolute darling if not a but fussy.


He used to belong to my (soon to be) father-in-law. We had a quick visit on Sunday morning where we found out they were planning to get rid of him. Now its been a dream of mine to own a parrot, so I immediately said we’d take him.

I don’t think he’s had much handling in the last few years. He was extreamly hand shy when we got him home and wouldn’t even take treats from us. Monday I discovered he likes it when you sing to him, and he had a dance, promptly climbed out of his cage, and sat on my shoulder for a bit! This was a huge step! He was a bit unsure of Chris for an extra day, but soon decided he liked him too. He has pretty much free reign over our room when we are here. And we bought him a new much bigger cage for him to sleep in.


This is his ‘room’. It used to be an old built in wardrobe. One that’s not had a front on it for as long as I can remember. It was full of crap, so we had a good clear out and moved the room around so there’s more space for him.

Cage came today and I spent the afternoon building it. Now that’s done and he is settling in¬†hopefully I’ll get some crafting done next week!