Confidence is something I definitely do not have. I’ve never believed in myself or my work and really struggle when it comes to receiving compliments or criticism. In my mind, if someone says something is good, they just feel sorry for me and are lying to make me feel better, or alternatively, if someone says something negative, its the end of the world and I should just stop drawing altogether.
THIS is something I am working on this year. I want to be more positive, and more proactive. I’ve updated my Etsy shop to now sell prints, working with the company Twofifteen who offer drop shipping at a really reasonable price.
I mean, worst thing that happens is they sit there and I don’t sell anything and have to pay the monthly Etsy charges, or I sell something.
So in an effort to raise my confidence, I am selling original artwork prints. Some are completely original designs, and some are fan art from video games and the like.
My shop is AshaFreemantleArt, super original. A lot of thought went into it (not).
I hope if nothing else you have a look. And yes, I am looking for feedback on ways to improve, without it destroying my soul. I want to get better at my craft. I want to make my friends and family proud that I am actually accomplishing something with my shop. And all proceeds go towards my partner and I’s dream of owning and living aboard a Narrow Boat.
Thank you for taking the time to read this blog. It’s an important one for me. It’s not about creating more sales or marketing myself or whatever. This time its just about taking a step and putting myself out there. If I fail, I fail. But I’ll get back up. And I’ll try harder. And eventually I will succeed and be a bonafide Illustrator.
It’s been a long time since I’ve gone out of my way to do anything illustrat-y and decided I would make a start before my course transfer is completed and I receive my new course materials.
First things first – Tablet
I’ve always preferred digital illustration to more ‘traditional’ mediums. With this in mind, way back in May I bought myself a new Tablet Monitor. The dream would be to own a Wacom, but that’s way to expensive while I’m studying so I settled for a Ugee 1910B. It took a little fiddling, and some help from my IT guy friend, but its up and running now. I just need a DVI lead as its running through a VGA at the moment so the resolution isn’t as good as it should be.
I used to be pretty good at Photoshop, but again its been years. I used to be able to create things like this:
But I’ve since lost all my skills and shortcuts, so it’s basically back to square one. I essentially watched loads of video’s on YouTube and made loads of notes.
Here are a couple that I found really helpful:
I’m probably going to add to this list as I find more useful videos and tutorials so I have a useful list of references.
So using this new info I set out with a quick doodle:
I really wasn’t happy with the finished doodle. The perspective is off somehow? I think it’s just where I need to get used to drawing directly on to a tablet screen. I used to use an old Wacom Bamboo tablet, which had no display, so it just translated on to your monitor as you drew. This is a learning curve for me though so I’m not going to beat myself up over it. Just need more practice.
For those of you that don’t know, back in February of this year, I started studying for my BA(Hons) Graphic Design. I’ll be honest.. it hasn’t gone well. I lost all motivation for it a few months back when my mental health started to deteriorate and I didn’t physically have the energy to manage that and working full time. I’m currently signed off work for that very reason, and decided that a step towards improving my mental health would be to sort this out.
After some careful consideration, I’ve decided to switch from Graphic Design to Illustration. It was always my dream to study Illustration and even went to Falmouth Uni for an interview, but alas, didn’t get in. Since then its kind of taken a back seat to real life. One of my deciding factors in originally choosing Graphic Design was that I was working in a marketing role, and I had it in my head that Graphic Design was more marketable as as a career path.
Since then, things have changed. I have met a wonderful man that fully supports my passions, (weather they’re marketable or not) we’re getting married next year, we’re saving for a canal boat AND we have a Parrot! I’ve come to the realisation that I shouldn’t be spending my life trying to do the things that I think people want me to do, and that is it actually ok to do some things just for myself.
For regular readers, you’ll notice a new menu option at the top of the page ‘OCA Learning Log’. We’re required to keep a learning log documenting all work and research we do for our tutors as everything is online. Click the link if you’re interested in seeing what I’m up to. I mean, soon. At the moment there’s nothing there. But I’ll be updating it as soon as I can, and probably more often than I do here. Ooops!
I’m feeling better. Not good, but better. I’m hoping making steps to sort this all out, and focus on something I enjoy will help. And obviously I’ll keep the various crafts and wood burning coming.
Thanks for reading